Ode to Old Flames

My lips can't forge the words
my mind just can't admit
that the one I truly love
will make my heart commit
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I think my heart is feeble
in it's effort to deny
how much I really love him
my passions' hard to hide
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It's easy to just write it
so he can't look me in the face
as I stutter, and I stumble
as my heart begins to race
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I always start to daydream
when I ponder him and me
my eyes start glazing over
I keep my gaze on what I see
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I want to try to hide
this vision I can't erase
my lies are so embittered
they leave a sour taste
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You're my perfect person
for others to be compared
there's no reciprocation
it all just seems unfair
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My body feels so cold
as I long for his embrace
but it's friendly in it's meaning
like the kiss that warms my face
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I watch you hold my friends
coveting all they say
it wounds me deep inside
I need to breakaway
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I think it may be fate
that's keeping him from me
forcing me to envision
what was never meant to be
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When I liked him
he never had a clue
when he liked me
I was being so astute
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I am truly stupid
disregarding this 'till now
evading my true feelings
and this love I was endowed
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Everything was hidden
deep within my soul
the place that's always torrid
where my blood is never cold
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You know who you are
if you know me at all
but nothing you could say
will ever break my fall
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I am going to stop here
my jaws are left agape
I thought this was a dream
but I am still awake....